There is some back sotry that I have to go through to get to what is going on right now. Psycho Knight was in love with a mutual friend and she lived with him for awhile. She did not return the love and broke his heart. She joined the army and left.
About a week ago PK moved and with him when the last remaiinders oof her stuff. Well he found it yesterday. The other part of the back story is that we are steadily building a relationship. He calls me baby, I call him babe. We are dating and its getting serious.
With him finding her old stuff he obviously went through it and it brought up some old emotions in him and now he is hurt again. I was there to help him pick up the pieces when she left and I thought he was pretty well over her. But now he is heart broken at least for the moment.
He is my best friend and I know this is the risk I take by dating him, but I feel like second best now. Like if he cant have her he'll settle for me. As his best friend I don't want him to settle for anyone, as the person he is dating I don't want to be settled for, and as his lover I don't want to worry that he is thinking about someone else.
I'm not sure how to feel about this or if I should be posting this. But he doesn't have Internet for the time being so by the time he sees this the feeling will have probably passed.
<3 Swt
I know I already said most of this, but you probably need to hear it again. ;) He's not settling. We bot know that PK isn't that kind of guy. He sincerely cares about you, you are his best friend and he would never do anything to hurt you. It's quite the opposite, really. He's going to care for you and take care of you to the best of his ability. He knows you don't want to be settled for and he wouldn't be disrespectful enough to try it. Old wounds heal slowly, Sar. Just be there to help him heal. Show him how you're going to be different than A. Remember, you two may doubt my ability, but if he hurts you, Imma cut a bitch. He's got enough of your heart in his hands that this chick will get real pissed off real quick if he drops it. I love you. Things will work out.
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Aww, I don't think it's settling, hun. When N and I got back together following my breakup with that other dude, I'd have to face those emotions once in a while. It's like a weird reaction that you really don't even understand because you have a perfectly wonderful person whom you adore. I know it hurt N when he'd think about it, which always made me sad, but time has passed and it's a distant memory now.
ReplyDeleteHang in there.