Usually when I talk about you "love life" I am referring actually to your sex life. As I have said before, they are different. But the term "love life" is taking on a whole new meaning for me.
Since I started "dating" Psycho Knight my definition of love has been flipped all around and turned inside out. I have loved him as my best friend for years but always kept him pushed back a little bit so that I couldn't fall for him. I hate falling in love and it scares me, but this time is different; this time I want to fall for him and I get excited every time I notice myself getting in deeper with him.
My "love life" now involves wanting to spend all of my time with PK and missing him terribly when I can't be with him. He works until at least 9 every night so I only get to really see him on his days off so it's kind of hard. I have never been with someone that I wanted to spend every waking moment with. It hurts so bad every time I have to leave him and go back home; I'm starting to run out of reasons why I shouldn't move in with him.
I'm holding off for now because I need to get everything settled with Baby Daddy and get myself squared away, but as soon as I fulfill my list of requirements, I am so there!
Our relationship is an open one and I like it that way for now but I know that as we progress and I get more comfortable commiting myself to him that the status will change.
Love you guys.
Swt
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